How’s it going? We made it to hump day and I couldn’t be more relieved. This week came with its shares of challenges between digital learning and managing a business, but I will say that I’m coming out with a new perspective when it comes to: ME.
Since turning 30 last November, I have been on a quest to discover and fall in love with myself. If I’m honest, I can not think of a time where I have ever been invested in me. My thoughts, dreams, decisions, and such have always been made with others in mind. I know you may pose the question: “What’s wrong with that, Jess?” This is actually a red flag, considering the fact that this can be what I like to call a “people pleaser”. My dreams and aspirations have been created around someone else’s thought process and/or ideas. I was tired of living this way, so I made myself a promise that I would take out time to get to know who I am. I mean, after all, this is the life I was given and you only get one, right?
Two weeks in and I am disappointed in the way I have treated myself. Naturally, I enjoy serving others– it really blesses me; however, that is not all that I am composed of. God has placed so many dreams and visions on the inside of me and these gifts not only glorify Him, but if executed properly, they can serve others and myself well.
After leaving from up north in 2019, I relocated to the south with no plan in mind of who I was or what I was called to do. As a matter of fact, I still dealt with bouts of depression throughout that time. Since being in the south a lot has occurred that has shifted the trajectory of my life and the way I see myself. Prior to Covid, I was working full time. During that time, I was introduced to a young lady that I like to call the “seed”. Immediately after meeting her, she walked up to me and asked “So, what hustles do you have?”
The question left me stumbling for answers. I should know this answer. Unfortunately, I didn’t. Feeling baffled, I replied, “Well, I’ve done a few things in the past but I don’t have anything right now”. Surprised, she told me that I should always have at least 7 streams of income and that I needed to get the ball rolling. I took this task very seriously. I pondered over the question for about a week before I prayed about it.
Initially, I did not hear anything from God. After some time, God began to speak to me about desires, passions, etc. Each day, he would give me more and more wisdom. As I continue to spend time with God, he would download wisdom and revelation into me that left me feeling joyful, excited, and optimistic about the future.
Covid happened and I was out of a job. The only source of income that I had at the time. Prior to being let go, I prayed consistently about that position and God’s guidance. I remember the day I received the call. It was one of the best things that could have happened to me. Once I was let go, I began to focus on the vision God had given to me and I have not stopped since.
I recently received a job offer that almost made me consider. I was getting frustrated with the business and this offer came out of nowhere. I never applied for the job but here I was being offered a senior position in the industry that I love. It was in that moment that I realized that my time as an employee were over. You see God has brought me a long way, so to be in the space where I am betting on God is humbling. He favors me. He loves me. His plans are far more advantageous than any plan I could conjure up.
I decided to bet on myself. Trust God and what He’s placed on me. Everyday is a new day and require daily prayer but I’m doing it and I feel the change. So, I want to encourage you — RUN WITH ENDURANCE THE RACE THAT IS SET BEFORE YOU & TRUST GOD. That’s the key! Take some time throughout the day to just talk to God. Tell Him what’s going on, He wants to know (even though He already knows). I believe you can do it and God is waiting like the perfect gentlemen.
Start the business, sis. Start the business.
Until next time, Jess 💜